Life more of a choice than we think

As I was eating my deep-dish pizza from Little Caesar last night, while watching the Biggest Loser, I was consumed by the notion of how close we are to something that we want and that it is just a breathe away.  The notion is that we are just steps away from meeting our goals.  The Biggest Loser television show really has good morale messages hidden inside of it.  

The trainers focus on putting oneself first and that when one is down and maybe out, that in this moment there is a choice.  This choice is to whether to take the next breathe in the right direction and in the wrong.  How true is this in all situations.  When you are standing in line behind a slow mover in the grocery check out line or a crazy driver on the road way, its a choice on what we do to handle the situation.  Often times I find myself losing my patience and wanting to get my tasks accomplished.  I choose to react the way I do even though at times it comes so natural.  We have to embrace who we are and also strive to become who we want to be and who we really are.  After taking all the crap away from life, we can get to the core of our being.  I am relieved to know that God is at the center of it all and that his peace shows me who I am and what I should do. 

Time seems to slip through my fingers but I am grateful knowing that in this moment, I can breathe my next breath in the right direction. 

Thank you birthday wishes!

Today was a nice day.  This past weekend I found myself putting in lots of extra hours doing my job.  Satuday night I got little sleep before singing at church on Sunday then working all day at the theatre.  Today was a nice catch up day.  I woke up really late, 11:30 ish and got ready and had breakfast with Rob at my favorite diner place.  I spent the next few hours trying to upload new software for my I-phone that I have been putting off for weeks due to my schedule and free time.  This took a lot longer than I hoped and I found myself phoneless on my birthday.   Rob and I drove to Jackson Michingan tonight to see my parents and one of my sisters, Jill.  Jackson is about the half way point from Detroit to LaGrange IN where my parents and sister are from.

We had a great time catching up and had good food in the down-time.  I got home around 10:30 pm and found a inbox full of messages and greetings. I felt loved.  It was such a warm feeling to hear from so many people and know that they care about me.   I care deeply for so many people but find it very hard to keep in touch.  I am thankful for technology so we can at least from time to time stay connected.    My Iphone is finally synched and back to normal.  I got the I-phone this past summer and it really is incredible and almost life changing.  It's awesome how everything is inner connected and links so much of my life to one device.  The problem is when it goes down like today.  You realize how much you rely on your phone or device that carries your important information.  I learned today that I should make a better effort to learn phone numbers and important information.  All devices will fail one day but your memory will hopefully last a lifetime.

I'm grateful tonight as I prepare for a big day at work tomorrow.  And of course, I am counting down to my favorite show on television, The Biggest Loser.  I love that show.  That's a blog for a different day.

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Starting my 27th year

Tomorrow is my birthday and it's hard to believe that I am turning the big 27.  It seems like it is going to be a great year, I'll be in my "prime".  All kidding aside, how crazy is that!  For the past 8 years I have focused solely on my education.  That phase is now gone in my life and I can start actually living life!

Part of this is really finding myself.  It's not that I have lost myself, it is more of finding my voice inside of myself again outside of school.  I hope to write my thoughts and findings on this blog for the next year.  I am not doing this for anybody except for myself.  I think that I need to start hearing my own thoughts again.  It seems that I have been giving so much information that I need sometime to process it so I can move on and accomplish great things.

So, now I can starting thinking on what I should write. What fun!  I'm excited and relieved.  It's fun connecting with my old friend xanga.  I hope to find it better than I left it but someplace that i can still express myself.

Until tomorrow!

Hello out there!

It is mostly weird.  I haven't been to my xanga page in ages.  Since I'm here I should write something.  So here it is.  I'm writing. Sort of.  This is kinda like a bad movie... or is it...  Life has gone incredible fast.  I'm looking at graduating (this time for the last time.)  Before I know I'll be somewhere on a grand adventure and I cannot wait.  I have been living inside of the box of academia for years and I want to break free and explore the world.  I need to learn what the world has to offer me and I have to teach the world who I am.  I have lost touch with so many people.. mostly due to graduate school but also due to me being lazy.  What an incredible awful feeling.. to know that you could have stayed in touch, but didn't for... who knows.? 

Well, I’m heading to New York City.  I'm determined to make it and I will.  For if you can dream it, you can do it!  I hope that's true because my dreams are awfully big.  I hope you are doing well if I haven't seen you in light years but if our paths cross again, I hope that we can catch up quickly. 

Life is really going good.  Wow, it's really quite exciting.  I'm loving school, my job, my place in the world.  Finally it seems like life is alining and coming together. I'm really happy. I love life. I'm becoming less self conscience and embracing myself and who I am.  It's such a good feeling.  The week is going great.  I'm getting worked up more and more each day about the biggest game of the year- USC vs ND.  My two favorite teams meet up for this "game of the century"- (espn news- www.espn.com).  My prediction:  It will be a tough game, USC will over power ND in the first quarter but the defensive of ND will shut USC  and hold them to only 10 points, but ND will score this quarter a field goal.  At half time it will look down for ND but the spirit of ND will come to life.  At half time ND will be down 24 to 6. But the magically third quarter brings ND back to life and reminds everyone in the Nation why Charlie Weis will be the coach of the year for this season.  ND will score 3 touchdowns in the third quarte and holding USC to only a field goal.  The score going into the 4th quarter is tied at 27.  This forth will be tough for Notre Dame.  Having a bad experience in a tight game aganist Michigan State in early September, the ND squard finally learned their lesson.  Being calm, keeping the game focused, and not giving into the USC dreams of making a three peat.  Destiny will arrive in South Bend once again, but only after USC comes back after ND scores 7 , with 1 min and 32 seconds left USC scores the 2 point conversion making the score USC 35 ND 34.  The kick off will happen putting ND at their own 14 yard line.  But with 68 seconds left, the ND spirit capulates and inspires the nation to watch intensely as they struggle to march down the field.  With 25 seconds left and 35 yards out ND throws the ball up for the touchdown and ND comes down with ball scoring making the final score 41 to 35. ND wins and bumps up in the pole to number 3 in the nation and goes on to play in the Rose Bowl.  USC's 27 game winning streak is finally broken and struggles the rest of the season.

There it is folks.  The game!  ND wins!  ND wins! ND wins!